Facade

It’s quite weird. Most people actually have many sides to them, so I guess the saying ‘There’re two sides to a coin.’ doesn’t really apply, because there’re so many sides of ourselves that we present. One to a close friend, one to a parent, one to a sibling, one to an enemy, one to a teacher, one to another teacher, etc…(you get the idea) I wonder if there needs to be all these different shades of one person. I wonder if one day, you can just be so pure, so simple, that you don’t need this curtain to veil the other sides of you. Perhaps when that day comes, we’ll find out that it ain’t that good after all. Perhaps we’ll find out that tactfulness works for some, while others need that straight-in-the-face kind of approach. Perhaps we’ll find that we cannot speak our true feelings, lest we hurt someone. Ah well, if that day comes, I’ll probably be 90 and have one foot in my grave already. Just a random thought(: Because I realise that perhaps, I’ll never get to see the other sides of my closest friends, maybe I’ve never really known them at all, after all these years. Maybe what I’ve been seeing is just a facade for the ugly truth?

Well I feel very inspired now to be true to myself and speak only the truth. But after talking about all these things, yet, I know that I won’t be able to be 100% honest. It just won’t work, and it won’t improve relationships. Perhaps for some, but not all. White lies maybe?

On a lighter note, enrichment has been pretty… enriching, shall I say? Haha it ain’t bad, quite fun actually because we get to talk(: Yes I love talking. A little drama today to spice things up. My stupid partner-.- steal me mian, shake my mian, disrupt the eating of my mian. Made my whole mouth oily because you kept shaking me and I couldn’t eat properly): Pooh.

My sister’s being really ridiculous and paranoid and stupid): She’s still waiting outside her room, shining the torchlight around, looking for the lizard that she saw 1/2 and hour ago. It’s getting irritating, demanding my dad to check it. It’s the 4th or 5th time she’s asking him to check under her bed-.- A lizard doesnt stay at one spot for 1/2 and hour. Tabuleh tahan. She’s 26 by the way.